For you... NOV

" Even in the little time we have known one another... I can't help but care for you...
Your heart... your soul...and all those crazy things you do..
If only you knew....

But after that it gets so complicated...
You make it so hard for me to even try

You don't see it from my point of view
We are so far apart and I'm so young...

" I don't wanna think about you..."
It's not that I don't want to think about you..
Just that I CAN'T while we are how we are...
And it's not the way you want me to..
Maybe one day, but I can't lead you on...

The things you say...they get to me...

You makes me feel so guilty.. and over what?

I hate the way I still care about you...

I know you have been through so much.. and I'm here for you...
Just stop pushing me away and then wanting me back.
There aren't many people who can make me cry...
Crying is the same in every language...

You think you have got me all figured out... But in reality you have no clue...
Things is so much easier back in the start.
You think you know but really you have no idea.
All our conversation are forgotten....
and arguments take their place...
I'm JUST a GIRL... what more do you want?

I just want things back the way they were.. When i smiled to see your name...
Back when we have a laugh... and I hated it when you were gone...

I MISS YOU.. :(

We hardly talk anymore.. and it kills me to lose you like this...
I know you find it hard for you to believe.. but I would be lost without you...
Talk to me... I do really need you...
It may not may be love...but does that really matter?

H O P E .....

You mean the world to me.. I hope this helps you understand...

" One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life...and that word is LOVE "

Closing my eyes...I count to ten.. Life is easier when we were just FRIENDS.

We used to be so close but now we can be standing right beside each other and it feels like we are miles apart.


I try to talk to you... but you don't understand...

"I MISS YOU..."



~ Your Angel 

Meet Him and him...

HIM- He is love . We all know that. He's my everything.. He's my ultimate lover, He's my confider, He's my Jesus.. He's my true love...

I've known and loved God deeper for almost 4 years now since I became a Christian. I've learned, I've loved, I suffered, I've enjoyed the victory. This is my God given life, full of unexpected things to come. But this all I know, everything happens for a purpose and life is too short to waste. While I have this life, I'll spend this  to fulfill my destiny and that is to glorify Him... my Love.. my Lover.. My Father.. My Jesus... and TO LOVE HIM ABOVE ALL THINGS...

him - I thought I would never like him in my entire life. He is "the man of my dreams?" still confused. Really confused. I met him in our church here in our place. I was really disgusted the way he looks, really disgusted. All I know, he liked me first and perhaps showed his feelings by giving everything what I wanted. Give me this! Give me that! Yes.. This is the girl  I was before yet God convicted me not to do this act as a response of his fondness to me. I'm very sorry. I confess I was really wrong by that time and apologized to him for all the wrong things and motives I've done... We're now Okay... He's doing fine in that place.. I know he's growing with the Lord.. and here I am, learning , seeking, waiting, wanting, loving.... perhaps....
doing my best to control this feeling and even denying that I was finally falling to him all this time...

Honestly speaking, I asked GOD and even myself this questions about him.

1. Are you the man of my dreams?
2. Are you the man worth waiting for?
3. Will you love me in return?
4. Are you my husband to be?
5. Are you the person I would spend for the rest of my life..?

Are you the one....?
Whoaaaaaah! Questions unanswered!

But GOd just reminded me just today....

Not my time - HIS time
Not my will - HIS will
Not my way - HIS way...

Yes Lord... I will wait... But you know what , this is the biggest question and the hardest question I need to find the answer before anything else.. even the first thing I wrote here..I wrote... I wrote... I asked.. but how about this. : " DO YOU WANT ME to ENGAGED in MARRIAGE someday .... LORD?"

I need YOUR VOICE....

Love....

Leilani

When My Heart Speaks...

This is my first post in this blog wherein I will write all the beatings of my heart...

Bear with me please.. I'm not a poetic lass, I'm not a good writer...
Yet , I will just share to you my feelings, my agonies, my hopes, my ideal man, my LOVE...
God bless everyone.. this is me.. the real feelings inside of me..
And I pray I won't be govern with just a feeling from my flesh but a heart govern of GOD...

GOD is LOVE...

~ Loving You for eternity...

Leilani